Hej all,

I´m despairing. So I write down it to you all.
recently I make a Song for Paolo. It gives a Story about it and a deeply sense(for me). It was in the connection with the autumn song. My "nonno" died last autumn. Was a hard way. He was a good grandfather and a great human.
He loves music and makes it too. Every time he was good and loved me true. The other familymembers are fuddy duddy and have a small mindset and get depressed all the time.
So I find Paolos Song and i can fall in it. And cry out my pain. find power and buy a guitar. So I practice every day (when my kids snitch my guitar *lol*).

Then the song grows in my head and came out. Together with a friend we make a recording of it and he put segment of piano and drums on.
I dont be really satisfied with the recording but I would to give it Paolo, when he was in town.
I play guitar for 4 months and it is not the best. I have sung my best and play my best. alltogether it fail a
The recording situation didnt was a sound studio.no no it was in a old shabby (not anry mean)house outskirts. But it was fun.

I made a handsome Cover with leaves and pictures and wrote in it the story and my request and so.

Then it was completed. Now the CD would to Paolo.
A nice friend knows anybody whi knows somebody who knows...
A man who was on the way to a meeting in the location where the gig should be.
Was the same day.I dont know if it had been received to Paolo.

One day before a good friend from me died. I was so shocked and thought I let it be.But I dont.A girlfriend takes me to the concert. It was a little to much for me. ´Then I saw the state of Paolo. Whas he drunk? I must say the friend who died was addict. And I must think on him all the time. For him it begans with a little beer and joints , than more and more drugs, pills ...and twelve years later he give up and died. This hasn´t to do with the song but it including to the common story and it moved me so deep.

So I see and read about your presents for him and his nice answers and reactions of it. So I am asking myself. what have I do wrong? Was it so bad. Was it to much. Have I nothing to abide. Or is the awaitng for reply to much. I am a human and I would show him my due to his work an being what he is.Not anymore. A short feedback I wish not more.
Think he has it chuck away or is die of laughter.

When you would hear it I can send it per mail.

Rosa..that's a really touching story...at which gig of Paolo have you been ??? Where ?

hej sambista. i´ve been in Berlin (Huxleys new world). Do you go to the gig in Montreux?

This little light of mine I'm going to let it shine

I have been at the Berlin gig, too !!!
He was fab !!!!
And yes, I'll go to Montreux....

Please, don't be too dissapointed about your song and not knowing whether Paolo did receive it and what he thinks about it....there are sooo many things coming up to him at tour,soooo many people (million faces),fans, media,many presents, wishes for photographs,signing....
Don't take it personally.
I met him several times, don't know him really but at my age and because of my life experience I may say that I got a good knowledge of people's nature....and Paolo is such a humble and nice guy, he would never laugh about it or chuck it. I don't say so just to defend him,it is my truly conviction.
I could only imagine him being touched and overwhelmed...it may be "too much" in that kind of way (hope you'll understand what I mean...)

And...the most important thing at all is that you wrote that song to express your feelings and deliberate your soul that suffered with pain. That's a gift, that's what music is about !!!
That is just wonderful, Rosa !
Whether he may get it or hear it one day.....it is a gift you made to yourself and your beloved ones.
So...don't focus too much on him getting it...keep on writing songs and singing, that's great !!!

btw : misstrouble_43@hotmail.com

I totally agree with what sambista said, I am positive that Paolo wouldn't just laugh at something like that!

and i would love to hear the song, if you dont mind

just.re.wind@hotmail.com

Hej you both

Are you deslerish it? I know it. I am so embaressed of it. Try to take comfort in your answers. Head is hanging down. Hate myself for done the song a all the mistakes I ve had made with my f*** eagerness. Now it have no preference if Paolo get it or not.
I don´t wanna bore you with my depressed things. Believe there is anything it sits deep in me. On thuesday is the burial.

Big hug for ya, Rosa !!!
I didn't understand all you wrote...what is the meaning of the word "deslerish" ??? Can't find it anywhere...
Sonst schreib ruhig auf Deutsch
Eagerness,embarassment,sadness and loss are part of our lifes and you don't need to feel sorry for anything.
I feel a bit sorry that I didn't already answer your mail....i was way too busy the last days and forget about it... .....the song is nice,keep on working on it, needs to be refined musically,you know...but i am sure it will grow and be developed.
Even if you don't like it at the moment and even feel embarrassed...
Music heals !

Thanx.It works. I had a hanger . I practice so much now that ma hands are pain.
I was to fast and would like give it fast to Paolo. This is the mistake by myself. Would like he get it and like it but know that is noct all. I can be better. But I wrote about the situation at the recording. It wasn´t my guitar and anything was wrong with this thing.
Can you do a favor for me when you met Paolo in Montreux. Sadly,I can´t be there its so far.

Please ask him whether he gets it (CD?). Maybe about the trouble with it.It should be so lovely from you. I hug you too.so much


Do you have a new present for him? I had a Idea for it.No Song this time.
I think about lately. Why do we talk in german. But it has a charm and i can upgrading my english

hug
Rosa

@ Rosa : !!!!!!

hey..
yea it's a really touching story what you wrote down.. but fascinating in some way.. well to process your pain and everything you wrote your own song.. inspired by paolo , your own music/melodie and your own lyrics.. that'S a great thing I think!! and so I'd really like to hear this song you made up yourself..
I also love music.. play some instruments and taking singing lessons.. well but to be so creative as you told us.. that'S really great!!
so I hope everything's fine at the moment..
..and have some nice days!
lg

my email adress:
jaha91@hotmail.de
It would be really nice if you can send it to me..

Hej jannah,

thanx for your nice answer. I try to send it to you when I get home in the afternoon. Now I wrote new things and try and pracitce in every free minute.
I ask myself: Has Paolo get it oer not? Hm..
The next try is waiting. maybe with a new song.
Like to lay my Soul down on Paolos feed. again and again.deeper and deeper.
Searching to the perfekt composition. Will find it some day and touch his soul like a little rainbow.

Hi Rosa!!

your story made me think and remember things. Unfortunately almost everybody had suffer such a lost like yours, and me, personally short time ago. So Autumn means so much for me too. First time I heard it I wrote it down and put it into an envelope.Then in San Juan (1st day of summer in Spain, everybody make fires and write wishes or thoughts in a paper to burn them later, so they'll become real) I burnt it with a letter. And that was comforting...So I can imagine how you felt writing the song and singing it later. I would love to hear it, really: ally_vecas@hotmail.com

Btw, Im going to see Paolo in Carcassonne in a few days, if I have the chance to talk to him I'll ask him about your song.

Big kiss, Ali